I don’t know how to express myself more than I do now. I don’t know why she didn’t realize me. Or is it just that, I’m unaware of her cares for me? !!! Oh, ooh, I’m completely in the complexities of mind and emotions.
Now a days – Well for the last few months, If I need to be accurate – I’ve to hear lots of criticism and/or banter about her. Or many time forced to hear. Hurts when it’s from those who related to both of us. Feels avenge towards those who created and/or watered this whole scenario. Feels sad to hear all these.But none of them ever capable of shaking my love. It’s that I just don’t care any rumors at all. That’s my trust or faith – if you want to put it that way. I suppose, God gave a lot of patients for me to spend. So many are safe even in future as if they are now.
I love her as if none can ever love her more than me. I love her and really cares for her. Just to clarify: I really doesn’t care about me. But I love myself. That’s the foundation of my confidence the belief in myself. Well put by the quote : “Men can be destroyed bur can not be defeated”. So don’t even think about defeat me. You have to finish me off if you really want.
Here, I just wanted to say that, there’s a mixture of faith and trust with me, which leads me, untired. Trust and faith, two similar but different phenomenons. Which one dominates, in my case, still need to be verified by me. It’ll take some time of self-evaluation. Which I’m not ready to do now. But you, my friends, or you my beloved can do that, now or then, as you please, if ever.
