Faith or Trust : What really is it?

I don’t know how to express myself more than I do now. I don’t know why she didn’t realize me. Or is it just that, I’m unaware of her cares for me? !!! Oh, ooh, I’m completely in the complexities of mind and emotions.

Now a days – Well for the last few months, If I need to be accurate – I’ve to hear lots of criticism and/or banter about her. Or many time forced to hear. Hurts when it’s from those who related to both of us. Feels avenge towards those who created and/or watered this whole  scenario. Feels sad to hear all these.But none of them ever capable of shaking my love. It’s that I just don’t care any rumors at all. That’s my trust or faith – if you want to put it that way. I suppose, God gave a lot of patients for me to spend. So many are safe even in future as if they are now.

I love her as if none can ever love her more than me. I love her and really cares for her. Just to clarify: I really doesn’t care about me. But I love myself. That’s the foundation of my confidence the belief in myself. Well put by the quote : “Men can be destroyed bur can not be defeated”. So don’t even think about defeat me. You have to finish me off if you really want.

Here, I just wanted to say that, there’s a mixture of faith and trust with me, which leads me, untired. Trust and faith, two similar but different phenomenons. Which one dominates, in my case, still need to be verified by me. It’ll take some time of self-evaluation. Which I’m not ready to do now. But you, my friends, or you my beloved can do that, now or then, as you please, if ever.

Friends : A nourishing thought

Friends… Those every one ponders in their memories. Everyone listens to them than their own parents and family. We share our secrets with them again not with Mom nor Dad. We hope, they will be with us till our last day. Friends, we die for; we care for them.

Yes, I remember that SMS that roaming in our mobiles:

“A true friend will never let you do stupid things. ……. alone! “

This is what friends for us, Guys.

Not to discourage you gals, I’d like to add one more SMS. [Though not in exact form]

One day a boy didn’t come home. Next day when he arrives his dad asked him where were he? He told he was with his friends. (lie of course). Father calls his friends. Out of 10, 8 said he was with them and 2 said he is still sleeping in their bed.

Gals this is men. And the depth of friendship. Everyone knows their friend well, and what he will do. So everyone must be co-operative. Otherwise….

We are slightly off topic now. Okay, Let’s come back.

For me everyone spend some quality time with me are my friends. And wonderful thing is that most of them remembers me after a long time, even if there’s no contact at all for years. I don’t know Why! nor How! But it’s happening in my life. Sadly I also found out that (or is that just my feeling..! ??? ) most of my good friends (those who I considered my good friends are..) are later turned out be just friends. And those I thought just friends transformed themselves into good friends. Is that because I’m week at maintaining relations? Or is that because I’m a failure in assessing people?

Best friends are another category. In my life, I’ve seen people who tell every friends are their best friends. For me, they are Number One frauds. Best friends are a rare category. I bet you, there can’t be a lot of them, more than a handful is a dream. And even a handful is a luxury. I’m proud to have best friends. Don’t fuse your heads, that’s not even a handful.

We cry for them, don’t we? We get excited when they achieve something, right? We celebrates even simple and silly things, right? We tease each other, guides each other, scolds and loves and where can you find this care and love and everything else as a package; at a single place? I can’t think of any except those freaking lucky fellows who got a partner who can act as a friend too, or a friend as a partner

Yet, I don’t know why many changes so much. But my dear ones, who changed overtime, I’ll be here unchanged. I’ll be what I’m for you, even after years. A true caring friend, who loves you by hearts not by words…, And I mean it.

I’ll remain here without you, my dear friend. For you to return, if you left alone somewhere in your journey of life. Don’t expect anything more. It’ll be same old me. But remember, The older the wine gets, it’ll be splendid and precious.

I hope, my abilities to sense good friends early be enlighten, and friends remains friends for ever. And this post is for you, my friend. Let god bring good for you and make our friendship even stronger…